I am new to this board. I need help! I had my third child almost a year exactly and I returned to work after 3 mos. At that point, I was begged to train for a marathon w/a coworker bc he had just lost his current running partner. I had never trained for long distance, 10k max and he "taught" or ran w/me to get me up to speed. We ran a 1/2 in Nov. (just to get a race feel) and I felt he held me back. He guided me through it because it was my first time, but I just felt I could've had a better time. Later, he tells me I carried him the last 5 miles of the race bc he didn't have it in him. To get to the point, our marathon is in February and I've decided to make it my first and my last bc it's too time consuming to get all my training in working FT (the dh works in the evening so I am unable to run right after work), and having 3 kiddos under 6 yrs. old. I am so PROUD to have made it this far! I feel like a "true" athelete, so I want to run the upcoming race w/everything I have in me! I am not going go nuts at the starting line, just allow my body to tell me what to do and not him. The problem is I'm afraid of hurting my running partner's feelings! I can't leave him behind bc he keeps talking about when we get to the finish line together we have to look good for the pictures. He ran into my dh at the gym and mentioned he was concerned w/my start...that I'd take off w/the rabbits of the pack and not have enough left to finish at the end! Sigh! He's only stated to me that we have to look good at the end....reverse psychology? I feel I have to have some sort of loyalty to him bc I wldn't be in the position to run this race if it weren't for his encouragement. I don't want to run his pace, but I feel like a traitor telling him so. Mind you, I am 34 yrs. old and he is in his late 40's, maybe 48. Sometimes I think he doesn't want me to make him look bad since he's viewed as the real runner and I was just the trainee. Sorry so long! Please help! Thanks for your input.
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