I remember when I "left" the "main" board -- it wasn't that long ago, but it was during a high period of stress at work -- things have just not been "great in the dot com world" (no duh, huh? *smile*) and I just didn't need any more stress -- I said it, I meant it......My job had really reached the point where *anything* that was even vaguely a "sling or arrow" pointed in my direction from *anywhere* else was just too much.
I understand the thought of some people, that one should "stay and fight," or "stand up for their principles," or "try to explain," or whatever, but I came here for a few moments of peace, and maybe that's what started me on the marathon quest, too. Just a few minutes (at first) away from the stress.........
Well, on Wednesday, I found out that my job is being eliminated. This is a Heck of a shock. Sales are down, we have to re-group, you know the story. Interestingly, I got a "head's up" of a week.....the main "bulk" of people get their "actual notice" on April 15th, but those of us who helped start the company 3 years ago (yes, really) were given a "little" runway.
So, this has been a very interesting few days. I had a good smile at one point, at oh about 2:00 a.m., thinking -- Steve P., watch out -- as I can't afford COBRA insurance, I might be your patient yet! (Looks as if Kaiser is the cheapest option.)
Being a single, mortgage-d, 40 year old woman in the North County/San Francisco area, I of course find myself in the unenviable position of suddenly having no avenues(*currently* no avenues -- I am working on MAKING avenues of course!), with $ only lasting through May (not enough $ to pay a severance).
How this affects me is somewhat wide-ranging -- my computer belongs to work, so not quite sure after April 19th (the "very last" day I will receive a paycheck) whether I will be around here. It's the weirdest feeling. I have never, ever been in this position. And, at least in the "North of SF down to SF area" (even down as far South as Menlo Park/San Jose), the economy and prospects for "what I do" are not so great.
As for running -- hm. That is not so great right now either. I do have a question for the board....I definitely think the "knee thing" of Monday is my hamstring. We went out on Sunday to do an "easy" 18 miler -- flat, actually trying to pick up the pace (got a flyer from Big Sur that they "strip you of your race number" at Mile 22 if you haven't made it there by X time -- that put the fear of God in me) -- and at 14 that muscle really started to actively hurt (never actually hurt on the 24 miler -- just after). So I pulled up and had H go get the car (we were luckily doing a 14 and 4 mile "figure 8" so I just stopped at 14, which wasn't more than 1/4 mile to the car).
I *think* that it's kinda 'gravy' at this point -- that I should be OK for the marathon even if I just get a few more runs in (and probably nothing this week, just rest it). I will swim (with a pull buoy), but I'm curious as to people's thoughts. Right now, the muscle hurts (again) behind the knee, and also up at the hamstring attachment up by my hip (I'm quite sure that is what this is -- I've just never had a hamstring strain that wasn't in the "belly of the muscle.")
I do have a funny thing coming up -- next Sunday I'm supposed to run the Dipsea trail (Steve P, you know it), with some friends who are "setting me up" to do it b/c one of the group is someone who might potentially have a job for me and at the very least is well connected. I told them I did the 5 min/1 min Galloway and so I wasn't going to do this "hard core", that I wasn't going to do it if it was a huge "push" -- and also didn't want to hurt myself (yeah right) before the marathon. Now I have to figure out if this is a stupid thing to do (it's a very hilly, "watch your step" trail, starting out with something insane like a few 100 stairs in the hillside, etc. and going on for about 10 miles or so. I thought it would be perfect in prep for Big Sur, now I'm not sure WHAT I should do.)
So, I'm rambling -- but I'm sad, fearful, maybe feeling sorry for myself.
That's the update........
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